:: this post is part of the ‘hope’ series. it includes bits + pieces of my journey with depression, anxiety + insomnia with the hope that it will illuminate, expose, + help ::
It’s okay to have a bad day. Seriously. It’s okay.
Life changes, expands, shrinks, gets busy + peaceful depending on your current rhythm. And with that comes a whole range of feelings – overwhelmed, excited, stressed, happy, delirious, sad, happy tears, sad tears, etc etc etc.
Personally, the month of October was a hard one for me. I had lot’s of bad days + lot’s of good days.
The last two weeks of October were hectic. My final assignments + exams were due + at one stage I had 6 assignments due over one weekend.
With that came a couple of all-nighter’s, abundance of caffeine, tea, + sugar, migraine’s, headaches, neck ache’s, anxiety because of the stress + deadlines, + then the because I wasn’t sleeping properly I was having my anti-depressants at different times each day (completely underestimated my doctor’s advice – having the tablets at different times does actually affect you).
As a result, I started to go “backwards”. My mood became low, anxiety went high, got teary real easy, indecisiveness (massive indicator for me) flared up, + I started to withdraw from social situations again.
During this period though, I realised this: it’s okay to have a bad day or week, but it’s not okay to stay there.
Going on this journey doesn’t mean that everything will be sunshine + rainbows.
It simply means that your valleys will look different to the previous ones.
Recognise your triggers, take extra special care of yourself, say ‘yes’ to every social invitation, dress pretty, tell a friend, go for walks outside, drink your favourite drink, get offline, read more, + sleep well.
It’s okay to have a bad day or a dip in emotions.
But when you do (because you will), lift your head a little higher, take a deep breath in, be deliberate in making changes, + remember that if you want to get better, you have to decide to try...
[read more posts from the 'hope' series here]